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The Heart Folds Early

Published by University of Nebraska Press March 2026

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This book is about what it means to make a choice. As mothers, how do we carry life and death in our bodies and survive with our hearts intact? In The Heart Folds Early, Jill Christman folds the mournful recklessness of the twenty-year-old widow she was against the backdrop of her later marriage and new motherhood, including the choice to end a half-term pregnancy when a routine ultrasound revealed her baby boy had just half a heart. Courageous, clear-eyed, tender, and unexpectedly funny, Christman’s book reflects on her life and asks: What happens when we’re afraid the worst thing will happen and then, sometimes, it does? What does it mean to make and live with a heartrending choice? As mothers, how do we carry life and death in our bodies and survive with our hearts intact? The Heart Folds Early asks us to let our conversations around reproductive rights and abortion be as complicated and nuanced as they need to be, remembering—always—that an imagined choice is not a choice. From the prologue: “Why do we pretend we know? We do not know, we cannot know, unless we are, in fact, carrying a pregnancy in a particular time with every factor and set of circumstances that precise moment holds. An imagined choice is not a choice. A theoretical choice is a thought experiment, nothing more. The choice has to be a real choice, and then the decision needs to result in one or the other: an abortion or not an abortion.” Read more and spread the news for The Hearts Fold Early with press kit flyers shared here and here.
Praise for The Heart Folds Early

“At once fierce and exquisitely tender, The Heart Folds Early is a breathtaking journey into the mind of a mother grappling with an impossible choice. Jill Christman has written a profoundly generous book, offering her story with open palms and, in doing so, affirming the right of every woman to be the authority on her own body and life.” —Nicole Graev Lipson, author of Mothers and Other Fictional Characters

“This book is a continuous wonder, a compulsively readable story told with keen wisdom and nerves of steel about the fierce desire to grow and birth babies from a full life of one’s own. Christman plows right through the pastel curtain around labor and delivery, revealing exactly why the mother and creator of life must wield the power to control this dangerous, bloody, and powerful act and to choose a future for herself and her children.” —Sonya Huber, author of Voice First: A Writer’s Manifesto

“The Heart Folds Early is a brilliant, breathtaking memoir about the dignity and necessity of our choices, and how everybody bears griefs unforeseen that, at times, hardly seem survivable. Jill Christman writes about the toughest matters of human existence with a directness, empathy, and humor that is the closest thing I’ll ever know to love born from a page. I’m so grateful for this book, for this narrator’s wisdom, for her heart.” —Brooke Champagne, author of Nola Face: A Latina’s Life in the Big Easy

“It is often painful, but Christman is relatable, tough, and funny—the kind of company you want when the shit hits the fan … [Christman] is devastated by her son’s death, grieving and terrified, but, ‘there was nothing I was unwilling to face for my family,’ she writes. ‘I knew my own capacity.’ I was ready to follow her anywhere.” —Jessica Mesman at The Christian Century

“From the first chapters, Christman reveals her mastery of writing about grief in somatic ways that reject clichés … [The Heart Folds Early] is a nexus point between the personal and the political.” —Molly Lindberg at Synapsis

“Many have praised Christman’s new book for her ability to find humor amid agony—which is her gift—but I was moved by her message of healing from pain in order ‘to love more deeply’ which is her superpower.” —Steve Harvey, The Humble Essayist

 

Reviews for The Heart Folds Early

Trending Topics: Abortion Series on The Christian Century

Fear & Motherhood in The Heart Folds Early on Synapsis

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Interviews and features for The Heart Folds Early

Excerpt of The Heart Folds Early on The Writer’s Chronicle

“Writing to Keep Whole: A Conversation with Jill Christman on The Heart Folds Early” by Montserrat Andrée Carty at Hunger Mountain

Fanmail and Interview by Carlin Steere on Sweet Lit

“Interview with Jill Christman” on South 85 Journal and Converse Literary Journal

The Heart Folds Early: A Memoir of Grief, Loss, Love–and Choice” and interview with Diane Gottlieb on Brevity

“Thinkers Who Mother” a Thinker Spotlight with Nicole Graev Lipson

“From the Desk of Jill Christman: Baltimore Bound” a guest blog on The University of Nebraska Press Blog

“An Interview: Jill Christman, author of The Heart Folds Early, a Memoir” by Nan J. Bauer on Hippocampus Magazine

“Love and Grief: UO grad’s memoir looks at the personal choice of reproductive justice” interview with Nicole Dahmen on Eugene Weekly

“Invite Everyone into the Room” interview with Gayle Brandeis on Chicago Review of Books

“Author Questionnaire 203: Jill Christman” on The Memoir Land with Sari Botton

 

Podcasts, Radio, & TV for The Heart Folds Early

“Let’s Talk Memoir: Being Clear on Why We’re Showing Up To Tell This Story Now” (Episode 238) with Ronit Plank

“Pop of Culture: We Find Joy” on Indiana Public Radio with Jen Blackmer

“Facing Project: The Heart Folds Early on Indiana Public Radio with J.R. Jamison

“Jill Christman’s memoir The Heart Folds Early explores loss and resilience” segment on WISH-TV

“Femme On Creatives with Jill Christman” with Alyson Shelton on Femme On Podcast

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The Heart Folds Early is about what it means to make a choice. As mothers, how do we carry life and death in our bodies and survive with our hearts intact? Jill Christman folds the mournful recklessness of the twenty-year-old widow she was against the backdrop of her later marriage and new motherhood, including the choice to end a half-term pregnancy when a routine ultrasound revealed her baby boy had just half a heart. Available from University of Nebraska Press. Use the the exclusive discount code 6AS26 for 40% off! New events and interviews and reviews are on the horizon!

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