Falling

“Falling”—a longform essay—won the 2021 Iron Horse Literary Review Long Story Contest and was later released by IHLR released in a beautiful, illustrated, e-single that you can download for free here.

The essay’s core narrative chronicles our son Henry’s fall from a sugar maple, weaving in the stories of free-solo climber Alex Honnold and wire-walker Philippe Petit; through their feats of extreme daring, I think about how we navigate the scariest things and most profound losses—and continue to live, really live, with and despite and even because of our fear. “The mothers I’ve known who’ve lost sons to any kind of fall will think about their lost sons every day for the rest of their own lives. I don’t know what those thoughts look like from inside their mournful brains. I pray I never have to know, and even having that thought feels like a failure of empathy, but I cannot stop the prayer—not that, please not that, not my son.”—from Falling Adding to the fun, my friend Lauren Onkey—formerly both a VP at the Rock Hall and Director of Music at NPR—made a Spotify playlist to accompany the essay and it’s amazing. Join me and Lauren in considering all the ways there are to fall—and rise up—with Tom Petty (naturally), Patsy Cline, The Spinners, Chuck Berry, and many others: free fall, fall to pieces, fall in love, fall on me, fall apart. . .

Published by University of Nebraska Press March 2026

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This book is about what it means to make a choice. As mothers, how do we carry life and death in our bodies and survive with our hearts intact? In The Heart Folds Early, Jill Christman folds the mournful recklessness of the twenty-year-old widow she was against the backdrop of her later marriage and new motherhood, including the choice to end a half-term pregnancy when a routine ultrasound revealed her baby boy had just half a heart. Courageous, clear-eyed, tender, and unexpectedly funny, Christman’s book reflects on her life and asks: What happens when we’re afraid the worst thing will happen and then, sometimes, it does? What does it mean to make and live with a heartrending choice? As mothers, how do we carry life and death in our bodies and survive with our hearts intact? The Heart Folds Early asks us to let our conversations around reproductive rights and abortion be as complicated and nuanced as they need to be, remembering—always—that an imagined choice is not a choice. From the prologue: “Why do we pretend we know? We do not know, we cannot know, unless we are, in fact, carrying a pregnancy in a particular time with every factor and set of circumstances that precise moment holds. An imagined choice is not a choice. A theoretical choice is a thought experiment, nothing more. The choice has to be a real choice, and then the decision needs to result in one or the other: an abortion or not an abortion.” Read more and spread the news for The Hearts Fold Early with press kit flyers shared here and here.
Praise for The Heart Folds Early

"From the first chapters, Christman reveals her mastery of writing about grief in somatic ways that reject clichés ... This memoir is a nexus point between the personal and the political."
~ Molly Lindberg, writer at Synapsis: A Health Humanities Journal

“At once fierce and exquisitely tender, The Heart Folds Early is a breathtaking journey into the mind of a mother grappling with an impossible choice. Jill Christman has written a profoundly generous book, offering her story with open palms and, in doing so, affirming the right of every woman to be the authority on her own body and life.”
~ Nicole Graev Lipson, author of Mothers and Other Fictional Characters

“This book is a continuous wonder, a compulsively readable story told with keen wisdom and nerves of steel about the fierce desire to grow and birth babies from a full life of one’s own. Christman plows right through the pastel curtain around labor and delivery, revealing exactly why the mother and creator of life must wield the power to control this dangerous, bloody, and powerful act and to choose a future for herself and her children.”
~ Sonya Huber, author of Voice First: A Writer’s Manifesto

"The Heart Folds Early is a brilliant, breathtaking memoir about the dignity and necessity of our choices, and how everybody bears griefs unforeseen that, at times, hardly seem survivable. Jill Christman writes about the toughest matters of human existence with a directness, empathy, and humor that is the closest thing I’ll ever know to love born from a page. I’m so grateful for this book, for this narrator’s wisdom, for her heart.”
~ Brooke Champagne, author of Nola Face: A Latina’s Life in the Big Easy

"Many have priased Christman's new book for her ability to find humor amid agony—which is her gift—but I was moved by her message of healing from pain in order 'to love more deeply' which is her superpower."
~ Steve Harvey, The Humble Essayist

"It is often painful, but Christman is relatable, tough, and funny—the kind of company you want when the shit hits the fan ... "
~ Jessica Messman, writer at Christian Century

 

Reviews

"Fear and Motherhood in The Heart Folds Early" on Synapsis: A Health Humanities Journal

"Trending Topic: Abortion Stories" at The Christian Century

"Paragraph of the Week from The Heart Folds Early" on The Humble Essayist

Review Of The Heart Folds Early on The Writer's Chronicle

 

Podcasts, Radio, & TV

"Being Clear" on Let's Talk Memoir  (episode 238)

"We Find Joy" on Pop of Culture radio interview on Indiana Public Radio

"8-3: The Heart Folds Early" on Facing Project radio interview on Indiana Public Radio

Segment "Jill Christman's memoir The Heart Folds Early explores loss and resilience" on WishTV

 

Features & Interviews

"The Heart Folds Early: A Memoir of Grief, Loss, Love—and Choice" interview on The Brevity Blog

Thinker Spotlight on Thinkers Who Mother

"From the Desk of Jill Christman: Baltimore Bound" on University of Nebraska Press Blog

Fanmail and Interview with Jill Christman on Sweet Lit

"Interview: Jill Christman, Author of The Heart Folds Early" on Hippocampus Magazine

"Love and Grief: UO grad’s memoir looks at the personal choice of reproductive justice" an interview on Eugene Weekly

"Invite Everyone into the Room: An Interview with Jill Christman" on Chicago Review of Books

"Writing to Keep Whole: A Conversation with Jill Christman on The Heart Folds Early" by Montserrat Andrée Carty at Hunger Mountain

"Interview with Jill Christman" on South 85 Journal

 

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